Whoa, I may have actually changed the world…

…or at least someone’s world.

I’ve come to the end of my contract at my job as a community outreach worker. I spent four years getting to know people, providing them with resources, helping them achieve their goals, and just kind of being a friend to people who may not have a lot of support in their lives.

This past week, it has really started to hit home how big an impact you can have on people’s lives. A group of clients threw me a surprise going away party at their house- BBQ, pasta salad, beautiful cake, gifts. I was stunned. But, it shows that not only do I care about their well-being, they care about me too. We built genuine relationships and that is a hard thing to do with people living in poverty and distrustful of the system or representatives of the systems.

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My work held another BBQ for all my clients to come say good-bye to me. I was shocked to see 30-40 people roll through to say good luck, give me hugs, and pass me very sweet cards of thanks and encouragement.

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I’ve also been getting lovely words from colleagues. Happy for me, but sad to lose me in this fight for social justice.
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So, it has really hit me… I may have actually made an impact- on people, on the community, on policy, on a city. The world, or maybe just someone’s world. That’s an accomplishment and I am proud and grateful.

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And maybe they changed me a little bit too. And I guess that’s what it’s all about. Affecting people, affecting change. Working for a common goal. Working together. Being kind. Loving one another.

Whoa… that’s heavy.

Life Lessons from Thoreau & Warhol

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This quote has inspired me for a number of years now. I can’t say it has inspired me to the point of great actions which have drastically changed my life, but I am always hoping to muster the courage and strength to live a life I want.

In a little over a month I turn 30 years old and I can’t help thinking I’ve been putting off actually living for the last decade. Andy Warhol put it:

“Before I was shot, I always thought that I was more half-there than all-there—I always suspected that I was watching TV instead of living life…Right when I was being shot and ever since, I knew that I was watching television. The channels switch, but it’s all television.”

This is another quote that has resonated with me for the last few years. I’ve felt very half-here, half-living. Helping other people live their best lives while not thinking about my own and the consequences of it.

So, what direction are my dreams? Could they be west? Maybe I need to figure out what those dreams actually are. I don’t know, but like Thoreau, I want to “live deep and suck out all the marrow of life”, turn off this TV and start to live this life in full-body, not just half. I just wish I knew the first step.

That one room…

I think everyone has that one room in their home they aren’t sure what to do with. It ends up becoming the craft room, an office that doubles as a guest room, or just a plain ol’ junk room where you hide everything you don’t want people to see.

For me, that room is my 3 season sun room. It’s not quite a real bedroom, but it’s also not a patio. It’s a lovely room which I adore spending time in, but it always feels not quite right. Currently, it’s a plant and music lounging room with air conditioning (the only room in the house). In the winter it becomes a storage room for all sorts of strange wonders.

But, I thought it would be fun to ideally redecorate via the internet, just for fun. There’s no way I could afford most of these items ($128 for a pillow?!?!), but it’s nice to think about. Maybe one day…

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I – Wandering Pleats Curtain, turquoise, Anthropologie

II – Wilford Gold Side Table, One Kings Lane

III – Vintage Oushak Handmade Overdyed Rug, Etsy

IV – Spring Rose Sofa, Etsy

V – Abigail Coffee Table, One Kings Lane

VI – Gold Polka Dots Pillow, Etsy
Rose Fur Pillow, Anthropologie
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VII – Terrarium, Urban Outfitters

VIII – Oswald Floor Lamp, Anthropologie

IX – Tiny Fawn Print, Etsy

 

What is that one room in your house?